Missing New England

I miss connecticut ... mostly because I had BEAUTIFUL weather there, and my job was FUN there ha! I miss my job being fun ... yes my co-workers are awesome and get me through the days, but I miss enjoying what I do for a living. Honestly, if I make more more person cry I may have to start buying paint thinner to get the tar of my soul. ... and that children is what we call a rant/tantrum ha!

So excited mom and dad are home .... first time we will all be home together in a couple weeks!!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 200.5 lbs

Tomorrow I will:
- find a way to love my work again
- eating something yummy for breakfast

Travel Week

So its official ... you CAN loose weight while traveling and having meals paid for ha! I lost 1 lbs this week and I feel REALLY good about that. I honestly thought I would either maintain or gain this week after a couple of the days I had while on my trip. I do wish I would've made more of an effort to exercise while at the hotel, with all that equipment at my disposal, but still gotta be proud of what I have done!

I have been reading a lot of articals about the zig zag calorie intake theories. I am going to try out these theories this week ... so like today I ate a little under 1200 calories (mostly because I was lazy n didnt start meals until 11am), then tomorrow will be 1300, then 1200, then 1150, etc. I found a site reccomneded by a fellow dieter that I am using to decide the caloires for each day ... my fitness pal app is gonna be PISSED on those under 1200 calorie days LOL

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 200.5 lbs

Tomorrow I will:
- be excited to be back in the office not stressed ha!
- pack low calorie snacks to help those hungry times
- walk during lunch

Back in the Saddle

So ... ate pretty healthy on the business trip (had a beverage one night and dessert a other, but for the most part not too shabby).

However, today I have SUCKED about my eating choices. Unfortunately when traveling by bus and staying with my friends it did not get me off to a good start on the eating well, and honestly I have been just giving in to urges that come from looking into the fridge/cabinet every 30 minutes ha!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 201.5 lbs

Tomorrow I will:
- weigh-in and hopefully not be disappointed
- exercise like I should be every day

A Working Vacation

Well I weighed in and got my boost for the week ... now a new challenge, going on a work trip to CT and trying to keep up exercise and eating right. Can it be done?? We will see ha!

So of course I will not be posting until I get back on Monday evening ... I hope the 2 people reading my random thoughts can survive without me ha!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 201.5 lbs

Tomorrow I will:
- Exercise at the hotel fitness center
- Eat yummy food and enjoy it, without going over
- BE EXCITED IM IN CT!!!

Weigh In and Pizza

Well it was weigh in day again and .... I LOST 2 MORE POUNDS!!!!

I am so over the moon, I have lost a total of 8.5 lbs over the past 2 weeks. It blows my mind how the simple changes I have made have really changed my body. And as you have all seen, there hasnt been a lot of time were I have been denied what I want to eat, or what I want to do with my time. Yes, I need to occasionally stop myself while eating Pizza to make sure I'm still hungry, and days where I have to verbally kick my butt to get a work out in ... but Ive been doing it, and I am SO pumped!

Oh and we had pizza tonight for dinner .... Grilled Chicken and Bacon :)

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 201.5 lbs
Loss: 8.5 lbs

Tomorrow I will:
- walk the dog
- enjoy dinner with my family (including older brother)
- finishing packing for CT trip :)

Party ... Wisconsin Style

So you know that night when you walk into a party and tell your friends "I'm not drinking tonight" yet somehow as you're leaving you find yourself logging two or more beers into your fitness pal app? yep that was tonight! ha!

I love when my friends come in from out of town ... my diet however, has other opinions ha! Today was truly not as bad as it could have been, especially since that little voice as I was driving home kept saying "mmm Rally's sounds yummy!". Thankfully I had an excuse to leave before I had too many beers, and was able to convince myself not to stop on the way home. Yay will power!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Todays Weight: 203.5 lbs

Tomorrow I will:

- clean the house and do laudry
- eat a high protein breakfast and lunch
- walk Harley because she deserves the exercise

Movie Night

Okay so I have found the way to mildly control the calorie intake at tonight's outdoor movie shindig ... purchasing the snack myself ha! Thankfully I will get reimbursed by the group hosting it, but still its nice to know almost every food that will be available, and know how much I can have of each without going over my calories (or at least a LOT over ha!).

Today was a pretty good day for me diet wise, although I did give in and eat the last oatmeal raisin cookie at work, and tried one of those sierra mist kiwi splash drinks (its the kind with real sugar not syrup so I was interested, and it was GOOD!).

Starting Weight: 210lbs
Todays Weight: 203.5;bs

Tomorrow I will:
- exercise before work at the store
- eat a healthy lunch and dinner
- clean the house in preparation of my guests

BAD!

So I was VERY bad at the healthy eating thing today, but MAN was it fun!!! ha!

I had bread sticks, cheese sauce, pizza, and an oatmeal raisin cookie :)

Not much else to report, other than we finally got rain today and everyone in my office was gathered around the few windows we have just starring at it ... I wanted to go play but decided that could be construed as "unprofessional". Being a grown up sucks!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Todays Weight: 203.5 (but lets be honest I feel like 10000 lbs)

Tomorrow I will:

- be better at making healthy food choices
- not regret the yummy food I ate today
- enjoy a movie with friends at a film festival

Feeling Good

I really do appreciate when people say "it's not about the number, it's about how you feel". However I do need to point out, I wasn't "feeling" bad at 210 lbs, honestly I liked how I looked for the most part and felt like a good looking girl with a lot going for me. What I HATED was, jean shopping ... I work part time for a clothing company and cannot wear their pants because of being a size 14/16, and they don't carry those sizes. THAT SUCKED! I also HATED always having to worry about if my tummy was showing ... nothings grosser than my flabby tummy hanging out showing it off and showing those stretch marks ... mmm sexy ... NOT!!

I'm feeling good though ... I love who I am becoming physically!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Todays Weight: 203.5 lbs

Tomorrow I Will:
- find a way to have a butt busting workout at home
- enjoy a lunch out with friends
- try and convince Harley to go on at least a mile walk (diva has been stubborn with the heat ha!)

Hello Doritos!

That's right I am currently writing in my weight loss blog while eating Doritos ha! Don't worry, I am only eating one serving, I am drinking water as I go, and eating them slow in case I fell full and can put the others away for another time. I really don't feel bad about it either ... mostly because I had a craving for Steak n Shake cheese fries on my way home from work today ha!

I think this is one of those times we all have to look at the process and say ... Its okay to indulge once a while, just keep focused on the goal and don't get crazy! ha!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 203.5

Tomorrow I will:
- make the overnight oatmeal for Thursday breakfast
- remember to eat breakfast at home so I am not forced to use TOO many calories at einsteins
- find a walking partner for Friday when my co-worker is out for the day

Working out while at work

So today I was "that girl" at work ha! Thankfully I had a buddy right there next to me. Today at lunch because I get an hour break a co-worker and I went for a walk, nothing too long or hard but 30mins at about noon is quite the situation for me ha! Felt good to get in some exercise before eating my pizza (lean cuisine BBQ Chicken) for lunch.

Might have to go for another quick walk to make sure Harley lets me sleep tonight. Plus she likes to work on her fitness with her momma!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Todays Weight: 203.5

Tomorrow I will:
- walk at lunch time
- eat breakfast!!
- buy more vitamins (don't care if I sound like a kid, I like the gummy ones ha!)

Fell off the scale

So today ... at exactly 5:00pm eastern time ... I weighed myself and almost fell of the scale ... I AM DOWN 6.5 POUNDS!!!!!! There you go, exactly what I needed to make me continue on with what I have been doing for another week.

This week will be a bit harder since:

1. My support/driving forces are in Florida for the week
2. My tennis coach is in Florida for the week (okay so its my mom but still ha!)

I am determined to make next week as good as this one. I may not reach another 6 lbs but as long as I loose 1 or more ... I am saying WIN week :)

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 203.5 lbs

Tomorrow I will:
- remember to take my walking shoes to work to walk with the best co-workers ever!
- choose a lower calorie lunch so that choosing dinner will be easier
- take a snack for mid morning or mid afternoon that doesn't use 1/2 my calories for the day

Broken Rules

so I broke a dieting rule today .... fasting because you know you are going to eat a large evening meal. Why is this bad?

1. because most likely you dont need all the food you are eating that evening
2. eating a large meal late give your body less time to digest it
3. FASTING (other than religious reasons) IS BAD!

Now I will add I did not "fast" intentionally, I didn't wake up on time, ran into the family store, and so far have eaten 110 calories worth of pretzels and a quaker chewy granola bar. So I have eaten, but not enough calories for the time I have been awake and in motion.

Starting WEight: 210 lbs
Todays Weight: 210lbs (weigh in tomorrow)

Tomorrow I will:
- eat real meals and snacks
- not cry as I step on to the scale
- not let what my scale says either relax my intensity (gazelle life baby!) or cause me to spiral in to stress eating

Beer and Pizza

I LOVE BEER AND PIZZA!!!!! Sorry, it just needed to be said out loud ... and in all caps :)

I decided to have Yuengling (which is exceptional, but especially in Indiana since we cannot buy it here) and pizza with Canadian bacon, mushrooms, and green peppers .... its delicious! And a good tip that I have found ... get it "square cut" so that when you are eating 1/6 of the pizza (which is the lower calorie choice when its a small pizza) then it feels like even more pieces :)

Also, I ate Indian food for lunch ... really today is my "excellence in food" day! Just have to keep reminding myself that I need to pay for it with working out (today and tomorrow).

My workout of choice today: small walk with Harley, and Wii free step with 2lb weights (oh yeah, feel the burn!)

Starting Weight: 210lbs
Todays Weight: 210lbs

Tomorrow I will:
- walk the dog before and after work
- treat myself to a pedicure because my toes are not pretty
- spend a WONDERFUL date night with my awesome boyfriend

Support

So I was sitting at lunch today and recieved an amazing gift ... one of my co-workers mentioned walking together at lunch. We get an hour, so we could spend 30 mins walking and 30 mins eating ... I sometimes can get frustrated at my job, either by my own stupidity or because the days just get long, but times like this make me sit back and think about how lucky I am to be surrounded by such amazing women (and the 3 wonderful men ha!).

Today went alright ... did not walk Harley this AM, decided sleep sounded better. However I have been really good about my calories today, and the greatest thing is I haven't really felt hungry. It does always surprise me I can eat all these wonderfully tasty things, portion them out correctly, and not feel hungry. Who knew?! ha!

Starting Weight: 210lbs
Today's Weight: 210lbs (I weigh in for the 1st time sunday)

Tomorrow I will:
- walk the dang dog because she deserves it
- eat Indian food for lunch and pizza for dinner and not go over 1200 calories before exercise
- I will leave a note on a random bathroom mirror stating "You are beautiful" and hope to fill someones needs in the process (http://operationbeautiful.com/about-2/)

Will toast be my downfall ?

So I stayed at 1200 calories today ... and I ate pizza ... and 2 pieces of toast. This is awesome!! However, did I really need two pieces of bread with butter? nope! I guess this is one of those learning things ... yes I CAN eat this, and stay under my calories for the day ... but SHOULD I eat this, and will I feel good about this choice? who knew eating was this hard?! ha!

I did talk Harley for a two mile walk and it was HOT, so she flopped as soon as we walked in the door (I might have done the same ha!).

Starting Weight: 210
Todays Weight: 210

Tomorrow: - I will not eat two peices of bread
- I will start putting together a dream board for my room (maybe a mini version for my office?)
- I will wake up early to walk harley
- I will be proud of everything I have done this week :-)

Mexican Food

So today went pretty okay ... the universe backed off a little bit but is not quite done testing me yet ha! Woke up early today and took Harley for a walk (nothing too long but still 30 mins is better than nothing). My mom was nice enough to make breakfast for the two of us (eggs and one piece of toast) while I cooled down and started getting ready to go to work.

At work I was tested a bit by some GIANT yummy looking cookies in the kitchen. thankfully many of my co-workers caved before I did and informed me they were hard and not as yummy as they look. Thank goodness that was enough to keep me from going crazy on a cookie (or three).

After work I went to dinner with a friend which was a whole new challenge, Mexican. I LOVE LOVE LOVE Mexican food. Thankfully because I was good this morning, and ate my lean cuisine for lunch, I got to have some chips, salsa, and arroz con pollo (only half an order). This was PLENTY of food, especially sitting outside when it was a bit hot.

so overall, yay me!

Current Weight: 210 lbs

Tomorrow: fruit for breakfast
                 pizza for lunch
                 salad with grilled chicken or lean cuisine for dinner

-- thinking tomorrow might be a good night to try one or two of those million workouts I have pinned on Pinterest!

The Universe Beatdown

Okay ... so the universe officially has decided that anyone who announces they want to loose weight must be thrown to the ground and beaten as a test. Today was that day for me .... but I am not going to let it set me back.

I wasn't able to fall asleep until 3am (still not sure why) so Harley got the short end and there was no walk this AM (don't worry, my mother took her for a walk this afternoon while I was at work). However, I didn't splurge on food, and stuck to my one diet soda so far, normally I am a full calories soda a meal kind of girl. And now I am off to play tennis with my mother so that i can blow off some steam after a LONG day.

7/9/12 Weight: 210 (will weigh once a week)

Tomorrow I will: Take harley for a walk
                          Eat at or under 1200 calories
                          not use the words "this blows" as much as I did today

Starting Out

So I have never written a blog, and yes I am sure to MANY of you that will become QUITE clear ha! This though is not something where I am trying to hone my writing skills or impress you with my whit. I am just another fat girl sharing her journey of attempting to not be fat any more ha! So to start I will give you 4-ish promises:

1. I will use the word fat, sorry if you do not like it but when I am talking about myself it's motivation not an insult.

2. I am an avid Dave Ramsey fan (hence the debt free part) and will do my very best to never spend, what I consider, unnecessary money along this journey.

3. I will relapse or get discouraged at one or more points. I do not feel it neccessary to lie and act like I won't because I am human and we are all weak sometimes.

3b. I will always get back on the "horse" and try again.

4. I will do my best to add some fun to this process, so that anyone who actually decides to read this doesn't bore themselves into a coma.


Tomorrow is Day 1 .... and I will be honest, I am not looking forward to it, because let's be honest anyone who thinks being on a constant diet and exercising their brains out is just a little sick in the head. Sorry, if you are that person, but in my world that mentality is concerning ha! I am excited though because my first workout session is going to be with the best workout partner on earth, my dog Harley. 

I have below given you the basic format of what my other posts will kind of look like.

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Weight Today: 210 lbs
Feeling: Tired

Goals/plan for tomorrow:

6:30am - Walking 1-2 miles with Harley (she will want more ha!)
8-5pm - Work (because even chubby girls need a paycheck)
             - I will eat fruit for breakfast
             - I will eat a lean cuisine (rice and beans) for lunch
             - I have no idea what is for dinner as I will not be making it ha!
6pm - Tennis with my mom

I will check in tomorrow, and let you know how things go!