2013

I have been thinking a lot about the coming year. I'm hoping to hit my goal weight, I turn 25, I will hit my 2 year anniversary of working for an awesome place, Harley turns 3 (or 21 lol), and I I will visit Vegas for the first time. As I think about the coming year of course I have to reflect on this past year. Lots of highs and lows, but I feel more and more like the me I'm supposed to become every day. So I have decided to make 3 large goals for the year and make a promise to myself that I will do one thing every day to get me closer to me goals. I've been tossing around a few ideas... And won't decide until Dec 31 but some of the ones I've been tossing around are:

1. Record/Remember more events
2. Feel more confident in my own skin
3. Make more dreams into reality
4. Be more adventurous
5. Love, Laugh, Live

Food has been hard while on break from work but not doing terrible. Harley helps by keeping me active even during the blizzards and snow lol

Starting Weight: 216lbs
Current Weight: 191lbs

Tomorrow I Will:
- have fun with my sister before she leaves
- clean and organize the apartment
- grocery shop with some of my Pinterest finds
- make a daycare plan for Harley for the next 2 weeks

5Ks and Cookies

So the 5K DID NOT kill me (although at times it felt like it might lol). I did enjoy the time with my family, and I did not hate the "alone" time as much as I thought I would. Yes I ran most of it alone because my brother in law was sick so my nephew stayed home with him. Which was sad but in a way nice, because the whole thing was at my pace.

So last night, during my "I Finished!" high, I decided to get back on track about my eating. I have been allowing too many snacks to slip through the cracks. Either I track them, but don't exercise enough to cancel them out, or I don't track them and secretly pretend they didn't happen.

So of course today we got two more gifts at work (chocolate covered pretzels, and cookies!). and I am sorry, I am not really the "just say no to desserts" kind of gal! Thankfully I had a sensible breakfast, a light lunch (beans, salsa, cheese, and blue corn chips), and plan to have a light dinner (not really that hungry .... just have to keep the boredom snacking at bay.


Overall .... feeling pretty shiny today!

Starting Weight: 216 lbs
Current Weight: 191 lbs (got my new scale to use ALL THE TIME)

Tomorrow I will:

- behave at lunch at McCalister's Deli
- run/walk 3.1 miles on the treadmill before picking up H at daycare
- have fun at work ... gotta figure out something :)

It's on!

Today has been a good day so far .... I was nervous about not being able to fill H's stocking this Christmas (yes I am AWARE shes a dog ha!) but today one of my co-workers shared a "groupon-esq" deal with me $25 for $50 at an online store PLUS a 25% off code PLUS FREE shipping and garunteed to get here before Christmas!!!! I am one happy momma!

This weekend will be fun as well ... my big sister, brother in law, and nephew are coming for a visit and to run a 5K as a family on Sunday. I will be participating, and I am NOT looking forward to this. I am NOT a runner, so I shall be walking, and while I am happy to do this for my mother (the organizer/master guilt trip artist) I have no want or need to be a "runner" or compete in atheltic challenges with large groups of strangers lol

Saturday though will be a highlight day ... I will be spenidng all afternoon/evening celebrating one of my friends as she preps for her big day (wedding of course!) which is one week from Saturday!! We will be having her shower in the afternoon, and then off to the bachelorette party at the Jazz Kitchen!!

Overall ... I lead a pretty charmed life folks .... now I just have to keep it a slimmer charmed life as I prep for VEGAS in May!!!!!!!!


Starting Weight: 216lbs
Current Weight: 191lbs

Tomorrow I will:

- have fun!!
- watch my calories as I party
- find a good about being in the 5K (other than time with my family since they will be .5-.8 miles ahead of me lol)

New Challenges ... New Rewards

So I am back attempting this "dating" business again .... I'm not terribly sure about this but I'm gonna give it my best shot lol Most of my uneasiness does come from this weight loss journey. It's hard when you know some people in the world still see you as "big" or "overweight" but all you want to scream at them is I LOST 25 LBS BITCH! lol

Other than that things are going well, loving the new apartment, and miss H is getting used to living away from grammy and grampy ha!

Also I am trying that 50 challenge thing again .. a little different this time, I got rid of the "no scale" section and that is not in my plan lol Also I made my own tracker sheet because theirs was not easy to mark progres son and actually see where I was.


Starting Weight: 216lbs
Current Weight: 187lbs

Tomorrow I will:

- eat a more protien rich breakfast
- talk a longer walk in the morning and after work rather than just at lunch
- I will get excited for my date ... thats right I have a date tomorrow evening *crossed fingers*

Size 12

that's right ... SIZE 12!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wore a SIZE 12 dress to work on Monday AND bought SIZE 12 jeans from Old Navy on black Friday!!!!!!!!!! (yes SIZE 12 will be in caps lol)

Feeling good ... not feeling great about my breakfast choice of the day (cold pizza) but it's my fault for staying up too late and not getting the sleep I should've ha!

oh well .... SIZE 12!!!!!!!!!!!!

Starting Weight: 216 lbs
Current Weight: 191 lbs

Tomorrow I will:

- Make breakfast
- Walk Harley
- Pick something fun to do for me (thats free)

I Survived Thanksgiving

well it is almost the end of Thanksgiving and I have SURVIVED!! I wish I could say I stayed under 1200 calories consumed, but let's face it, you wouldn't believe me ha! So here's the breakdown:

Calories Consumed: 1550
Calories Used (work outs): 222

So overall not too shabby! Thankfully I am surrounded by very supportive family members, that help me keep things in check, as well as not jusge me when I have a cookie (or 2). My mother even sat down with me tonight to try a new approach to eating that I read in my kindle sample of ëat this, not that". Since I know I want to hit 1200 calories in a day (plus exercise) I took 12 (well I ended with 13 or 14) pieces of paper with food that equals 100 calories (some a little less but 100 was the max). Basically the thought it 12 times a day I get to pull a piece of paper out of my "food baggie"and eat whatever it says. I broke my into 3 baggies, main foods, side dishes, and desserts/sweets. Of course the day wouldn't be complete without a curve ball ... on black friday we eat at cracker barrel, and I am NOT giving that up lol. So I looked at calories/fat/sugars/etc. on the web and chose the side portion of hashbrown casserole, and 2 scrambled eggs (right at 200 calories together) and this way, I stay in a safe range AND i get to enjoy the meal with my family not feel deprived. This also means I still have 10 more times during the day I get to choose foods from my baggies.

yes, I am anal retentive about food, money, and life, but thats who I am, I LOVE control in my life. Get on board ha!

Current Weight: 191 lbs (went to the doctor and realized our home scale was off)
Starting Weight: 216 lbs
Total Lost So Far: 25lbs (yay team!!)

Tomorrow I will:
- Shop till I drop
- miss Harley but know shes having fun with her uncle
- workout and burn at least 150 calories

*btw sorry I have been irregular in my posts ... life gets in the way ha!*

Update

Not much to say ... I'll let the pictures speak for themselves ..

Changes

So many changes lately ... Moving into a new apartment, getting Harley into a new daycare, and starting a new goal with a co-worker. I am pretty excited about all three!

The new goal is to loose another 10-15 lbs in the next 32 days (my company holiday party) and the reward will be wearing a beautiful dress I purchased from Madewell. It's gonna be tough since I need to at least loose 2lbs a week if not more, which for me means kicking exercise into high gear and being better about my "indulgences".

Starting Weight: 210lbs
Current Weight: 188lbs

Tomorrow/Today I Will:
- finish moving
- make a weekday routine for me and Harley
- plan out some healthy dinners
- make a savings account for my Vegas trip in May

Eating

So this week I have not been so great about eating ... and I don't mean eating healthy ... I mean eating at all. I haven't been eating breakfast because I keep sleeping in, and lately if I work late or have something after work I sometimes only have a banana or chex mix instead of dinner.

I need to actually eat, eat healthy, and eat on a schedule again ...

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current WEight: 190 lbs

Tomorrow I Will:

- eat on a schedule ... ever 3 hours
- hug Harley tight before she goes to day care for the weekend
- think of 3 kind things to do for others

Fatty Fat Fat Dance

Today I am doing my fatty dance ha! I ate SO much good food ... 1400 calories of it :( However I enjoyed my time with my co-workers at the food trucks and I LOVED the bean dip my daddy made for dinner.

Not much else to report other than work stressing me the F*** out BAD! sometimes its hard for me to ask for help, and I get discouraged when I do and it seems like the one person who shouldn't be the one I rely on is, and I feel bad asking. (sorry weird thought but I just needed to put it out there)

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 190 lbs (prob.)

Tomorrow I will:

- not go over 1200 calories, AND get in 200 calories from working out
- walk 3 or more miles with Harley, she earned it today
- get excited about fun things during frustrating times

A New Challenge

Sorry I have been MIA for a few days but I have been gearing up for a "mini challenge" (yes it needs to be in quotes because there is nothing MINI about it ha!) with my co-workers. The hardest part of this challenge for me ... no stepping on a scale for 50 days!! So after weighing this last weekend, I will not be weighing in again until December 2nd (oyh!).

Challenges Guidelines (in 50 Days):

- Log 2000 Fitness Minutes
- Walk/Run 100 miles
- Do a plank a day
- Eat 250 servings of Fruit and Veggies
- Drink 500 eight oz glasses of water
- Go 25 days without eating added sugar (we all have different definitions on this one)
- Complete 20 random acts of kindness (my favorite part)
- Go 50 days without stepping on a scale

(yes I am terrified!) I think this will prove to be fun ... but HARD!! thankfully, I have some great friends to do this with, and a great support system around me.

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 190 lbs

Tomorrow I will:

- eat 5 or more servings of fruits and veggies
- try  to run for 6 minutes straight
- do my best to give the scale the stink eye

Dirty Words

So I did not meet my goal this last week ... however i did loose 3 LBS!!! So only 1lb away form that 2+2 goal from last week. This week I have a bit of a different goal, I want to make sure I meet or exceed my "burn 900 calories" in a week goal from My Fitness Pal. They gave me a gial of calories I need to burn every week in roder to have the weight loss I want, 900 calories ... oyh! (I am tired already!)

Now on to the dirty words .... here are the top 5 words I think are dirty, especially while processing a lifestyle change lol:

1. running (I AM NOT and WILL NOT be a runner)
2. cake (it's too good ... and the devil lol)
3. Hot yoga (yes two words but TOO much sweat and people touching)
4. "why don't we ..." (yes I know its a phrase but still, usually never followed by "eat some pie")
5. MOIST (mostly testing to see if my sister is reading ha!)

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 190 lbs

Tomorrow I will:
- bring my lunch to work
- talk the dog to her new daycare
- eat light since I won't get much chance to exercise

Food Fight

Today I was lazy ... I once again went out to lunch because I was too lazy to pack one this AM, and it cost me 800 calories ... they were DELICOUS ... but not really worth the guilt. I need to find a way to motivate myself again ... I feel like that slip last week maybe caused more of an inner issue than I was willing to admit.

I still have those dreams of being the girl who can eat/drink whatever I want and it not be so hard ... I can be the girls whose body doesn't betray her every time she eats a hamburger, or has that second beer. oh well ...

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 193 lbs

Tomorrow I will:
- get a game plan
- look cute

Fat Girl Day

So today and yesterday have been GLOOMY and COLD. The urge to just hang out and eat all night is STRONG! MUST FIGHT URGE!!

So today I will do at least 20 minutes of exercise, and increase as I go ... prolly wont make the goal of 2+2 lbs.

sorry it's a short post but the cold is fighting back ha!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 193 lbs

Tomorrow I will:
- work out for 40 mins
- try not to eat everything in sight
- enjoy the high points and not let the lows stress me out

oh Balls!

Yes ... you guessed it ... I gained :( obviously vacation and I do not get along lol Went to Chicago this weekend and drank myself back two pounds. I did do pretty well with my food but I need to learn to cut back on the drinks or make better choices on what I'm drinking (aka NOT hawiian punch mixed with champange and sherbert lol).

Overall though still feeling good, and ready to kick it into high gear this week ... goal: loose those two pounds + another = total of three ... If I loose 4 pounds I will post a side by side comparison shot of myself and buy a new top :) ... a little treat for everyone lol

starting weight: 210 lbs
current weight: 193 lbs

tomorrow I will:
- kick my butt all over this town and run 7 mins straight
- look at an apartment with the potential roomie
- make Harley tired

Adventures with Chinese Food and Beer

I will not drink my calories ... the chinese food will not overpower me .... hmm, lots of mantras to repeat today ha!

Today is a co-workeers birthday lunch (decided yesterday ha!) and also girls night out with some friends. I have mapped out my food and beverages for the day but I am famous for going out (espeically after work functions) and not sticking to the plan. Tried to give myself some wiggle room but I might need to do some light workout when I get home tonight ... which would mean limiting the beer anyway, because I have played the "drink beers then run 10 minutes" game ... it ends badly!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 191 lbs

Tomorrow I Will:
- run because I need to
- not go out to lunch to save money and calories
- pray I do not have to go into work at the store ha!

Sorry It's Been So Long

So i've gotten very busy and realized it's been 9 days since I last posted, so I will give some highs and lows of the last nine days:

Highs:

- I am down 19 lbs total .. and LOVING it!
- I finally posted a picture of myself on FB (and got such wonderful resposne from friends and family)
- Harley is doing well, and slowly getting rid of some of her puppy behaviors
- I am getting back in budget groove, and finding what works best for me (technology vs. old school)

Lows:

- not running as often as I should, took too many rest days last week
- getting a little loose with my eating habits when around friends
- drinking my calories (beer is good lol)

so obviously no one is perfect, and I have no goals of perfection. I will however strive to be the best me I can be (oh yeah I'm sure theres a cheesy song in their somewhere lol).

Hope you all had a great 9 days, and I will do better about blogging to entertain you all!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 191 lbs

Tomorrow I will:

- eat breakfast, still struggling with this
- not drink my calories in beer at GNO
- do something nice for someone just because I can

Anger Eating

a few weeks ago I went to a happy hour with a couple of friends and we discussed what we affectionatley call "Anger Eating" ha! Basically ti's when you are fed up with your day, your life at that point, or just anything in particular and you use good food to soothe that pain. The problem with this, we all agreed, is we do not "Anger Exercise" enough to balance the amount of "Anger Eating" we do.

This week was a great opportunity for me to fall into bad habits and anger eat myself out of all my progress. Work was no good, I felt stressed the entire week and just could not find a groove. Personal life kinda blew as well, I am single again and not happy about it. Just these reasons alone could cause a girl to go into a pizza and pop shame spiral REAL quick! I have done pretty okay, not a perfect week (there was for sure some pizza and frozen yogurt in my life to sooth my bruises) but I kept it together for the most part. I exercised, I went to my FPU lass, and I didn't slap anyone across the face (yes I was being called the "slap bandit" at work Friday because of some need to slap a few friends lol).

today I attempt the 10 minute run ... pray for me ... and my running partners because honestly they get my verbal backlash ha!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
current Weight: 194.5 lbs

Tomorrow I Will:

- go to church with mom
- have a fun lunch with my mom
- NOT run (its a rest day)
- find an activity to make me happy once a week (no food!)

I Vanish When I turn Sideways

Okay so maybe not vanish ... but hey, I'm looking good any way you look at me ha! I am so pumped, weighed in on Sunday and lost 2 POUNDS!!!! 4.5 more pounds and I will post the "session 1" pictures ... session 1 goal: 20 lbs, session 2 goal: 20 lbs, session 3 goal: 30 lbs ... goal weight 140 lbs!

Today was not a great day ... feeling stressed and tired ... and my horseback ridding lesson was cancelled :( I will look on the bright side that its been a good calorie day for me, and I hope to finish it out strong.

Tonight I have an event to host but thankfully it won't go too late and not too many treats to tempt me away from that 1200 goal for the day :)

Starting Weight : 210 lbs
Current Weight: 194.5 lbs

Tomorrow I will:
- run 7 minutes ... even though I hate it
- eat a yummy and healthy lunch and breakfast
- love on Harley ... she can always use extra love
- get excited for the relaxing weekend ahead!

Today was a Test

So today since I have dance class from 6-7pm (thats right I call pole dance fitness "dance class") I did not want to make mom and brother wait for me to run. So I said I would try and run on my own this morning so I did not get behind .... I did it! Granted if you asked miss Harley she would say what I do is NOT running, but she's a dog, and FAST ... so she can suck my balls (had to make my sister laugh).

the point is, I was tested, and I aced it! I may not be a fast runner, I may still hate running, but I did it! Also at one point Harley stopped, I continued running, so to prove a point that I was NOT faster than her, she ran ahead of me grabbed the end of her leash closest to her collar and tugged as if to say "let's go tubby!" ... I love that girl!

I didn't have a great food day (bagel, and pizza) but not TOO bad (I had a salad, got no dressing, one slice pizza, and had reduced fat cc on the good grain bagel).

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 196.5 lbs

Tomorrow I will:

- not gorge at the Indian buffet at lunch (its SOOO good!)
- figure something special for my mom on her and dads anniversary
- hug Harley extra tight for being exactly the puppy she is :)

Queen of the World

I LOST WEIGHT!!!! and not just a little bit ... 1.2lbs ... which means I lost the .7 I gained last week PLUS another .5 lbs!!! I'M QUEEN OF THE WORLD!!!!

okay so appreantly being around my sisters family means I eat like a 9 year old ha! Not always a bad thing since many of those food aredelcious, they just dont always agree with my digestive system or weight loss goals. Also this was the first week of no kitchen at my office ... 7 more weeks to go. I have come up with a couple solutions to this issue, but the first week was a bear!

Starting WEgiht: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 196.5 lbs

Tomorrow I will:
- eat breakfast
- Day 3 of training for a 5K with mom and brother (yes I still maintain those that run for fun are sick in the head!)
- not go out for lunch
- give myself a deadline to make the apartment decision

the First Gain

So according to my sisters Wii (since I was traveling away from my beloved and hated scale) I have gained .7 pounds this week ... Let me just tell you, it's bad enough that I gained but weighing on a Wii is just the rudest way to do this ... the Wii is an ASS!! Also when you are using someone's mii who is at least 5 inches taller than you (and according to the weight gain) 55 lbs smaller, not an uplifitig expierence ha!

Overall though I still feel good, and its a brand new week ... now I am off to the Cheesecake factory ... oh yea, its on!!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 197.7 lbs

tomorrow I will:

- exercise alone in the AM so my mom can spend time with her grandchild
- not eat my weight in breadsticks at lunch

Eating Out Challenges

So both yesterday and today have been hurdles with eating out. Yesterday was pizza day .. I was pretty good and got thin crust with veggis, but I did indulge in a delicioud breadstick with some amazing garlic butter sauce. And today was a co-workers birthday lunch at a chinese restaurant ... I got online, took their lunch menu and got the calorie and such information so I could choose what I wanted before we left so it wasn't a guessing game when we got back to the office.

I still find it hard to eat out sometimes, you don't always want to be the girl having her phone on the table so you can "out food in" every time you eat, especially when you are out with friends. However if you have friends like mine that like to decide where to eat in the heat of the moment there isnt much "pre planning" time. But we all get through it and do what we can (well at least thats what my mom says lol).

Starting WEight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 197 lbs

Tomorrow I will:

- drive to see sister and her new house!
- eat yummy food and drink yummy wine
- hug harley really tight and tell her to take care of uncle while he "watches" her

Weddings and Weight Loss

Well I did better than I thought I would this week ... I have lost .5 lbs to add to the total of 13 lbs! This week I was pretty good about my eating but this weekend was a challenge, J and I went out of town to a friends wedding and spent the weekend in Cincinnati (and yes I can only spell that while singing the Babes in Toyland song in my head). We had wedding reception food, popeyes chicken (more importantly the biscuits lol), a GIANT soft pretzel and cheese at the zoo, and Hooters wings for dinner .... oh and TGIFridays for lunch today :) It was delicious!!

I am pretty proud of myself and the little loss this week, as I had resigned myself to simply be happy with ability to maintain this week. Loosing (even half a pound) was a kick ass victory ... yes there will be a dance later.

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 197 lbs

Tomorrow I Will:
- go to work and do my very best
- take Harley for a walk and try to be happy during it ha!
- try to sleep and not be over excited for my Michigan trip to sisters next weekend

For My Sist

So my sister text me an complained that I need to blog every day ... so of course like a good little sister I will compromise and try every other day ... I HAVE A LIFE lol (not really but its fun to play make believe ha!). And yes she reads this purely because the horrible grammatic errors make her feel good about her writting skills :)

So today I got thrown through a loop because my pole dance fitness, oh yeah I'm that girl, got rescheduled. Not a big deal except I re-worked my work schedule to be 9:30-5:30 on wednesdays so I can play tennis in the mornings with my mom, and go to pole dance after work at 6pm, and since its closer to my work than home, this was a perfect solution. Of course I didn't know my class was cancelled until I got to work .... BUT good news, I have scheduled a last minute private ballet lesson at a dance studio one of my friends tipped me off about, so yeah we shall see how this goes ... all else fails, I am still getting my 1 hour of dance in today.

Feeling great after announcing my 12.5 lbs loss in the last 5 weeks ... although it did feel weird putting it out into the world on FB that I'm trying to loose weight ... guess that just feels more public than a random blog I write that I think only my sister and reandom dave ramsey friends read ha! I am really proud of myself though ... and I will loose the other 40-50 lbs before my birthday in 9 months (or at least I am going to try REALLY hard ha!)

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 197.5

Tomorrow I Will:

- walk the dog ... gotta stick to my plan/schedule that I spent so much time color coding
- eat a lean cuisine for lunch, I have two good ones in the fridge that need eating
- not have as many bruises as last week after pole dancing LOL
- Pack for the wedding in Ohio

Once a Week

So because honestly I am writting this all for my own enjoyment, I have cut back to updating once a week. I did my weigh in and I am down another pound making my total 10.5 LBS!!!!! I am so excited and am loving this journey. Trying to loose this weight has caused me to be a little braver, a little bolder, and honestly kinder to myself than I ever have been. I realized I have enough outside influences being mean to my body and self-esteem that I don't need to take wacks at them as well.

Tonight I attempt fitness pole dancing. I took a couple classes in Chicago with Steph and Debs and I am excited to go back, since obviously I remember nothing and still have no upper body strength lol The good news is I will only be with three other people and I am sure they will look just as fantastically bad as I do.

Starting Weight: 210lbs
Current Weight: 199.5lbs (ONE-DERLAND!)

This week I will:
- exercise more!
- walk Harley
- Enjoy time with Josh <3

The BK Lounge

Yes ... today I ate the Burger King, and it wasn't what I remembered it to be ha! I tried the new sweet potato fires and those (for a fast food place) were pretty good ... the whopper jr however, was no where near as meaty and delicious as I remember it being, I just remember it being bigger with more meat.

Good news I still have over 500 calories to use on dinner ... bad news, it's because I didn't really eat breakfast ha!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 200.5 lbs

Tomorrow I Will:
- finish my room re-do
- weigh in and hopefully keep my momentum even if there isn't weight loss
- finish my shadow/savings box with daddy

Tennis Champ

Loving the little vicotry today ... I did not let meyself "fake" sick and skip going to tennis practice. I went, and had an amazing improvement in my short game as well as my serve. Really glad i didn't miss me being awesome today ha!

Ate pretty well today (treated myself to a small piece of fudge at work, it was worth it!) with my lean cuisine at lunch, and a banana and string cheese for breakfast. Not quite sure what dinner will hold but I am sure something yummy!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 200.5 lbs

Tomorrow I will:
- try my new workout app on my phone (freebie!)
- eat a big dinner (bc I wanna, and I like dinner)
- maybe find a way to have pancakes for breakfast mmmm!

Power of Suggestion

Oh yeah suggestions can get you 300 calories past where you thought you were going to be for a meal ... things like "how about breadsticks" ha! WEl lthat was today for me ... but still not doing too shabby. I have found that as the days go by it has become easier for me to get passed the little setbacks that before wouldve knocked straight into a bag of doritos ha!

Today was a rough one ... woke up late, crazed at work, breadsticks at lunch ... but it can only go up right? ha!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 200.5 lbs

Tomorrow I will:
- have a good breakfast (not just string cheese as I sprint out the door)
- enjoy my day ... SLOWLY lol
- take pleasure in the sleeping in since I'm staying later today

Missing New England

I miss connecticut ... mostly because I had BEAUTIFUL weather there, and my job was FUN there ha! I miss my job being fun ... yes my co-workers are awesome and get me through the days, but I miss enjoying what I do for a living. Honestly, if I make more more person cry I may have to start buying paint thinner to get the tar of my soul. ... and that children is what we call a rant/tantrum ha!

So excited mom and dad are home .... first time we will all be home together in a couple weeks!!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 200.5 lbs

Tomorrow I will:
- find a way to love my work again
- eating something yummy for breakfast

Travel Week

So its official ... you CAN loose weight while traveling and having meals paid for ha! I lost 1 lbs this week and I feel REALLY good about that. I honestly thought I would either maintain or gain this week after a couple of the days I had while on my trip. I do wish I would've made more of an effort to exercise while at the hotel, with all that equipment at my disposal, but still gotta be proud of what I have done!

I have been reading a lot of articals about the zig zag calorie intake theories. I am going to try out these theories this week ... so like today I ate a little under 1200 calories (mostly because I was lazy n didnt start meals until 11am), then tomorrow will be 1300, then 1200, then 1150, etc. I found a site reccomneded by a fellow dieter that I am using to decide the caloires for each day ... my fitness pal app is gonna be PISSED on those under 1200 calorie days LOL

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 200.5 lbs

Tomorrow I will:
- be excited to be back in the office not stressed ha!
- pack low calorie snacks to help those hungry times
- walk during lunch

Back in the Saddle

So ... ate pretty healthy on the business trip (had a beverage one night and dessert a other, but for the most part not too shabby).

However, today I have SUCKED about my eating choices. Unfortunately when traveling by bus and staying with my friends it did not get me off to a good start on the eating well, and honestly I have been just giving in to urges that come from looking into the fridge/cabinet every 30 minutes ha!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 201.5 lbs

Tomorrow I will:
- weigh-in and hopefully not be disappointed
- exercise like I should be every day

A Working Vacation

Well I weighed in and got my boost for the week ... now a new challenge, going on a work trip to CT and trying to keep up exercise and eating right. Can it be done?? We will see ha!

So of course I will not be posting until I get back on Monday evening ... I hope the 2 people reading my random thoughts can survive without me ha!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 201.5 lbs

Tomorrow I will:
- Exercise at the hotel fitness center
- Eat yummy food and enjoy it, without going over
- BE EXCITED IM IN CT!!!

Weigh In and Pizza

Well it was weigh in day again and .... I LOST 2 MORE POUNDS!!!!

I am so over the moon, I have lost a total of 8.5 lbs over the past 2 weeks. It blows my mind how the simple changes I have made have really changed my body. And as you have all seen, there hasnt been a lot of time were I have been denied what I want to eat, or what I want to do with my time. Yes, I need to occasionally stop myself while eating Pizza to make sure I'm still hungry, and days where I have to verbally kick my butt to get a work out in ... but Ive been doing it, and I am SO pumped!

Oh and we had pizza tonight for dinner .... Grilled Chicken and Bacon :)

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 201.5 lbs
Loss: 8.5 lbs

Tomorrow I will:
- walk the dog
- enjoy dinner with my family (including older brother)
- finishing packing for CT trip :)

Party ... Wisconsin Style

So you know that night when you walk into a party and tell your friends "I'm not drinking tonight" yet somehow as you're leaving you find yourself logging two or more beers into your fitness pal app? yep that was tonight! ha!

I love when my friends come in from out of town ... my diet however, has other opinions ha! Today was truly not as bad as it could have been, especially since that little voice as I was driving home kept saying "mmm Rally's sounds yummy!". Thankfully I had an excuse to leave before I had too many beers, and was able to convince myself not to stop on the way home. Yay will power!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Todays Weight: 203.5 lbs

Tomorrow I will:

- clean the house and do laudry
- eat a high protein breakfast and lunch
- walk Harley because she deserves the exercise

Movie Night

Okay so I have found the way to mildly control the calorie intake at tonight's outdoor movie shindig ... purchasing the snack myself ha! Thankfully I will get reimbursed by the group hosting it, but still its nice to know almost every food that will be available, and know how much I can have of each without going over my calories (or at least a LOT over ha!).

Today was a pretty good day for me diet wise, although I did give in and eat the last oatmeal raisin cookie at work, and tried one of those sierra mist kiwi splash drinks (its the kind with real sugar not syrup so I was interested, and it was GOOD!).

Starting Weight: 210lbs
Todays Weight: 203.5;bs

Tomorrow I will:
- exercise before work at the store
- eat a healthy lunch and dinner
- clean the house in preparation of my guests

BAD!

So I was VERY bad at the healthy eating thing today, but MAN was it fun!!! ha!

I had bread sticks, cheese sauce, pizza, and an oatmeal raisin cookie :)

Not much else to report, other than we finally got rain today and everyone in my office was gathered around the few windows we have just starring at it ... I wanted to go play but decided that could be construed as "unprofessional". Being a grown up sucks!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Todays Weight: 203.5 (but lets be honest I feel like 10000 lbs)

Tomorrow I will:

- be better at making healthy food choices
- not regret the yummy food I ate today
- enjoy a movie with friends at a film festival

Feeling Good

I really do appreciate when people say "it's not about the number, it's about how you feel". However I do need to point out, I wasn't "feeling" bad at 210 lbs, honestly I liked how I looked for the most part and felt like a good looking girl with a lot going for me. What I HATED was, jean shopping ... I work part time for a clothing company and cannot wear their pants because of being a size 14/16, and they don't carry those sizes. THAT SUCKED! I also HATED always having to worry about if my tummy was showing ... nothings grosser than my flabby tummy hanging out showing it off and showing those stretch marks ... mmm sexy ... NOT!!

I'm feeling good though ... I love who I am becoming physically!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Todays Weight: 203.5 lbs

Tomorrow I Will:
- find a way to have a butt busting workout at home
- enjoy a lunch out with friends
- try and convince Harley to go on at least a mile walk (diva has been stubborn with the heat ha!)

Hello Doritos!

That's right I am currently writing in my weight loss blog while eating Doritos ha! Don't worry, I am only eating one serving, I am drinking water as I go, and eating them slow in case I fell full and can put the others away for another time. I really don't feel bad about it either ... mostly because I had a craving for Steak n Shake cheese fries on my way home from work today ha!

I think this is one of those times we all have to look at the process and say ... Its okay to indulge once a while, just keep focused on the goal and don't get crazy! ha!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 203.5

Tomorrow I will:
- make the overnight oatmeal for Thursday breakfast
- remember to eat breakfast at home so I am not forced to use TOO many calories at einsteins
- find a walking partner for Friday when my co-worker is out for the day

Working out while at work

So today I was "that girl" at work ha! Thankfully I had a buddy right there next to me. Today at lunch because I get an hour break a co-worker and I went for a walk, nothing too long or hard but 30mins at about noon is quite the situation for me ha! Felt good to get in some exercise before eating my pizza (lean cuisine BBQ Chicken) for lunch.

Might have to go for another quick walk to make sure Harley lets me sleep tonight. Plus she likes to work on her fitness with her momma!

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Todays Weight: 203.5

Tomorrow I will:
- walk at lunch time
- eat breakfast!!
- buy more vitamins (don't care if I sound like a kid, I like the gummy ones ha!)

Fell off the scale

So today ... at exactly 5:00pm eastern time ... I weighed myself and almost fell of the scale ... I AM DOWN 6.5 POUNDS!!!!!! There you go, exactly what I needed to make me continue on with what I have been doing for another week.

This week will be a bit harder since:

1. My support/driving forces are in Florida for the week
2. My tennis coach is in Florida for the week (okay so its my mom but still ha!)

I am determined to make next week as good as this one. I may not reach another 6 lbs but as long as I loose 1 or more ... I am saying WIN week :)

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Current Weight: 203.5 lbs

Tomorrow I will:
- remember to take my walking shoes to work to walk with the best co-workers ever!
- choose a lower calorie lunch so that choosing dinner will be easier
- take a snack for mid morning or mid afternoon that doesn't use 1/2 my calories for the day

Broken Rules

so I broke a dieting rule today .... fasting because you know you are going to eat a large evening meal. Why is this bad?

1. because most likely you dont need all the food you are eating that evening
2. eating a large meal late give your body less time to digest it
3. FASTING (other than religious reasons) IS BAD!

Now I will add I did not "fast" intentionally, I didn't wake up on time, ran into the family store, and so far have eaten 110 calories worth of pretzels and a quaker chewy granola bar. So I have eaten, but not enough calories for the time I have been awake and in motion.

Starting WEight: 210 lbs
Todays Weight: 210lbs (weigh in tomorrow)

Tomorrow I will:
- eat real meals and snacks
- not cry as I step on to the scale
- not let what my scale says either relax my intensity (gazelle life baby!) or cause me to spiral in to stress eating

Beer and Pizza

I LOVE BEER AND PIZZA!!!!! Sorry, it just needed to be said out loud ... and in all caps :)

I decided to have Yuengling (which is exceptional, but especially in Indiana since we cannot buy it here) and pizza with Canadian bacon, mushrooms, and green peppers .... its delicious! And a good tip that I have found ... get it "square cut" so that when you are eating 1/6 of the pizza (which is the lower calorie choice when its a small pizza) then it feels like even more pieces :)

Also, I ate Indian food for lunch ... really today is my "excellence in food" day! Just have to keep reminding myself that I need to pay for it with working out (today and tomorrow).

My workout of choice today: small walk with Harley, and Wii free step with 2lb weights (oh yeah, feel the burn!)

Starting Weight: 210lbs
Todays Weight: 210lbs

Tomorrow I will:
- walk the dog before and after work
- treat myself to a pedicure because my toes are not pretty
- spend a WONDERFUL date night with my awesome boyfriend

Support

So I was sitting at lunch today and recieved an amazing gift ... one of my co-workers mentioned walking together at lunch. We get an hour, so we could spend 30 mins walking and 30 mins eating ... I sometimes can get frustrated at my job, either by my own stupidity or because the days just get long, but times like this make me sit back and think about how lucky I am to be surrounded by such amazing women (and the 3 wonderful men ha!).

Today went alright ... did not walk Harley this AM, decided sleep sounded better. However I have been really good about my calories today, and the greatest thing is I haven't really felt hungry. It does always surprise me I can eat all these wonderfully tasty things, portion them out correctly, and not feel hungry. Who knew?! ha!

Starting Weight: 210lbs
Today's Weight: 210lbs (I weigh in for the 1st time sunday)

Tomorrow I will:
- walk the dang dog because she deserves it
- eat Indian food for lunch and pizza for dinner and not go over 1200 calories before exercise
- I will leave a note on a random bathroom mirror stating "You are beautiful" and hope to fill someones needs in the process (http://operationbeautiful.com/about-2/)

Will toast be my downfall ?

So I stayed at 1200 calories today ... and I ate pizza ... and 2 pieces of toast. This is awesome!! However, did I really need two pieces of bread with butter? nope! I guess this is one of those learning things ... yes I CAN eat this, and stay under my calories for the day ... but SHOULD I eat this, and will I feel good about this choice? who knew eating was this hard?! ha!

I did talk Harley for a two mile walk and it was HOT, so she flopped as soon as we walked in the door (I might have done the same ha!).

Starting Weight: 210
Todays Weight: 210

Tomorrow: - I will not eat two peices of bread
- I will start putting together a dream board for my room (maybe a mini version for my office?)
- I will wake up early to walk harley
- I will be proud of everything I have done this week :-)

Mexican Food

So today went pretty okay ... the universe backed off a little bit but is not quite done testing me yet ha! Woke up early today and took Harley for a walk (nothing too long but still 30 mins is better than nothing). My mom was nice enough to make breakfast for the two of us (eggs and one piece of toast) while I cooled down and started getting ready to go to work.

At work I was tested a bit by some GIANT yummy looking cookies in the kitchen. thankfully many of my co-workers caved before I did and informed me they were hard and not as yummy as they look. Thank goodness that was enough to keep me from going crazy on a cookie (or three).

After work I went to dinner with a friend which was a whole new challenge, Mexican. I LOVE LOVE LOVE Mexican food. Thankfully because I was good this morning, and ate my lean cuisine for lunch, I got to have some chips, salsa, and arroz con pollo (only half an order). This was PLENTY of food, especially sitting outside when it was a bit hot.

so overall, yay me!

Current Weight: 210 lbs

Tomorrow: fruit for breakfast
                 pizza for lunch
                 salad with grilled chicken or lean cuisine for dinner

-- thinking tomorrow might be a good night to try one or two of those million workouts I have pinned on Pinterest!

The Universe Beatdown

Okay ... so the universe officially has decided that anyone who announces they want to loose weight must be thrown to the ground and beaten as a test. Today was that day for me .... but I am not going to let it set me back.

I wasn't able to fall asleep until 3am (still not sure why) so Harley got the short end and there was no walk this AM (don't worry, my mother took her for a walk this afternoon while I was at work). However, I didn't splurge on food, and stuck to my one diet soda so far, normally I am a full calories soda a meal kind of girl. And now I am off to play tennis with my mother so that i can blow off some steam after a LONG day.

7/9/12 Weight: 210 (will weigh once a week)

Tomorrow I will: Take harley for a walk
                          Eat at or under 1200 calories
                          not use the words "this blows" as much as I did today

Starting Out

So I have never written a blog, and yes I am sure to MANY of you that will become QUITE clear ha! This though is not something where I am trying to hone my writing skills or impress you with my whit. I am just another fat girl sharing her journey of attempting to not be fat any more ha! So to start I will give you 4-ish promises:

1. I will use the word fat, sorry if you do not like it but when I am talking about myself it's motivation not an insult.

2. I am an avid Dave Ramsey fan (hence the debt free part) and will do my very best to never spend, what I consider, unnecessary money along this journey.

3. I will relapse or get discouraged at one or more points. I do not feel it neccessary to lie and act like I won't because I am human and we are all weak sometimes.

3b. I will always get back on the "horse" and try again.

4. I will do my best to add some fun to this process, so that anyone who actually decides to read this doesn't bore themselves into a coma.


Tomorrow is Day 1 .... and I will be honest, I am not looking forward to it, because let's be honest anyone who thinks being on a constant diet and exercising their brains out is just a little sick in the head. Sorry, if you are that person, but in my world that mentality is concerning ha! I am excited though because my first workout session is going to be with the best workout partner on earth, my dog Harley. 

I have below given you the basic format of what my other posts will kind of look like.

Starting Weight: 210 lbs
Weight Today: 210 lbs
Feeling: Tired

Goals/plan for tomorrow:

6:30am - Walking 1-2 miles with Harley (she will want more ha!)
8-5pm - Work (because even chubby girls need a paycheck)
             - I will eat fruit for breakfast
             - I will eat a lean cuisine (rice and beans) for lunch
             - I have no idea what is for dinner as I will not be making it ha!
6pm - Tennis with my mom

I will check in tomorrow, and let you know how things go!